Around September of 2017, I reached a point where I felt spiritually burned out. Everything I had experienced or seen in the last few years – doubt, disappointment, hurt, friends slowly fading out of my life as if our friendship didn’t matter, my parents struggling financially, feeling unworthy – just sort of culminated. I was simply tired. I looked for ways to sever ties and move away or find a new church for a fresh start.
Just when I thought I could leave what I had known for eight years, a dear friend reached out. It was the most vulnerable conversation I ever had. I knew I had a choice: I could either let bitterness build in my own heart and ruin my walk with Jesus and my relationships or focus on healing through grace and love with the Lord’s help. I chose the latter, and that was the game changer to move on.
It’s crazy what happened when I took the focus off me and healed. The biggest change? I found myself deeply caring for people in ways I never had before…for the women in my Small Group, my family, my friends going through a rough time, the hurting, the marginalized, the depressed, the ones who have had a tougher break in life than I have.
This has revolutionized how I walk with God each day: it’s not about me, but about a Jesus kind of love for everyone I know and meet, the same one that accepted me and changed my life nine years ago.